Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Not Strong Enough

I know I'm not strong enough like you. Mental I cepat down. 
I cried a lot. To be exact, it happened every single night. I cried every single night, until I fall asleep. That is the ugly truth from me. I keep thinking about you. 
When you're sad, I'm sad. See, I can't live without you. Don't leave me please hunny. 
I hate facing heavy and tensed shits. I can't handle tensed. I can't concentrate when someone tend to push me. I can't, I just can't. I can, but please stop pushing me. I can do it without your voice in my head. 

I tried to change to be someone that you onced love. Everything takes time. It doesn't just happens in one day sayang


I'm not gonna pick up my calls, and reply my messages UNTIL, Hakim finally call me. Hunny, I really miss you. Your punishment towards me was to hard. I am so sorry. I wish I could find another words for sorry. I am truly sorry. I know what I did was wrong. I made my mistake, I can take whatever punishment you gave me. But this, this is too BIG. I can't stand being apart from you hunny :'(

I'm going to wait for you Hunny. I will.


I just want you to know, the cut is very deep. The pain. I can't stand it. But I will try to keep hang in here cause I know you love me, hmm. Do you ? Sincerely ? 
I am so tired. I hope you know. This aren't going anywhere if silent speaks between us.