Thursday, January 27, 2011

Strength, NEEDED

Time flies, so fast. It's already been a year without school, classmates, schoolmates and all.

Since we left school, things started to change part by part, slowly everything torn apart, slowly we're getting far from each other, slowly we left each other, and kapich I'm gone in your life.
Hmmm, if you're reading this, didn't mean to offend you guys, just miss the old days, how things could go right even there's these days we fought like bitches

Right now, at this time being. I started to get this feeling. Kinda hard to explain it. Those uninvited feelings came when I see your pictures, your wall and all. Theres a lot going on, you're just to ego to talk to me. You know what you did was wrong, but you never tend to say sorry like a real sorry. I been keeping this feeling for 5 months, right after your BFF surprised birthday party. K, don't think I should mention your name. It's totally unnecessary. 
We have change, in two type
1. From good to bad
2. From bad to good
Pick a number, 
Things start to change and I don't really love what I see, listen to those things. 
So, call me mean. BUT, I do this for our own good. I wish you knew me better. You never care, you never ask. For 2 years of befriending. Still you don't know how I react at times right ?
The conclusion of all. I'm trying to call us off. Like OFF really. It's time to  let go of the past and just walk forward and never look back, not a second glance. NOT ONCE. I had enough. You're just to ego to admit you're cons. 
I hope you will experienced what I felt for 5 months. You shouldn't be doing things like that. 
Make different path, I do my thing, you do yours. We're cool like that. Going to build up my own wall, my own strength. Going to build up the NEW ME :) with hunny and others <3

Appreciate people that appreciate who you are, with your pro and cons.

P/s : I don't want to be near you guys :|


Qie like and qie love it <3

sayang sampai bila bila. 
FriendSHIP will never end <3

My b, wrote this for me :)
She's sweet or what. 
Kay, according to what she said just now. We ONCE fight like bitches over a guy and end up being BFF. Awwww. Never knew this could happened to me. Babee, even you don't know me well. But you're there for me :) ALWAYS, sorry if I'm not there for you sometimes. I can be pain in the ass sometime, with this a hole minded. Sorry sangat sangat. 
You know you can always count on me. Insyallah I can help you ok :)
We haven't meet yet, but it's like we known for years ; we known each other till now is 1 years 1 months 2 weeks 2 days. Waahhhh, dah lama dah kan ? 
I love you babe, thanks for picking me up when I'm down. You will be my first victim to be cry on. Hhe, thanks for the advices you gave me, even you're younger than me you know the boundaries. Erghh, sometime I get pretty jealous with you. You're like near to perfect. *the family, studies, friend that loves you well, your talent, clever you name it. You are all :D
I miss you babe, now dah habis sekolah kan. Blog will be your good peneman till your result k b. 
Beep me if you need any help aite. LOVE YAAAA,

Mine Teehee

My goodnight sleep :) 
You will always be in my mind, and I'm wearing your sweater NOW :)

My huggy wuggy ; is youu <3
 This will be mine, forever :D
Love you Hunny, 

P/s : We known each other for 6 MONTHS *27 JULY 2010,
already. <3 YOU kambingku.
Happy 6 months of befriending HunnyBee. 
Je T'aime B,

This Morning,

Kay, had enough with you gal. 
Satu hari tak kacau hidup orang memang tak sah eh ?
Kay, nama dia ni Cik B* -.- babi betul.
This morning time I baru sampai college, *kay hari ni ponteng class cause of issues kat rumah -.- 
I jalan to blok L, and nampak adi dekat situ with mira and siapa tah nama dia. 
Call hunny to wake him up cause class dia 10.30 that time that 10.25 * sah la tak bangun lagi kan. Then call angah cakap I kat bawah ni. 
While waiting for hunny and angah. Tried calling hunny again, and again and again. TAK DAPAT, like usual la kan. Teehee, so tunggu je sorang dekat pondok tu. 
And adi bangun jalan pi mana tah, *bternampak eh cause dia depan I. Then dia selisih dengan Cik B ni. Then bila cik B ni nampak I kat area pondok tu, terus dia like look straight to my face and like saying something -.- dia dengan kawan kawan dia. KAY, let me get this straight. This is not the FIRST time you do this, hope this will be your LAST time. Hopeless betul, kau ingat I nak ke dekat laki you tu. EXCUSE ME, laki aku dah cukup kay. Tak yah kot nak pandang pandang and buat mulut, kalau sekali dua boleh la kan. Ni kalau dah selalu. Ehhh memang muka aku ni suka kena caci je dengan orang kan. -.- you are not perfect and you're not his :D INGAT sikit,

Take note, I dengan adi tu tak bercakap pun, tak yah kot kau nak ingat aku nak rebut dia dari kau. TAK INGIN punn. Hunny aku dah ada pun :p

Get the fuck out of my face biatch, kisah pulak aku kau senior aku -.- TAK PEDULI !

K, marah jap. Sorry :D
Goodnight peeps, unfortunate for me I can't sleep at all

I wish !

Spend my every hours with hunny macam kejap sangat. 
Even if we sit at one place and just talk like 9 hours or more, talking and laughing and all. I still can't get enough of you. Still not enough for me. I just need you more and more. NON STOP. My heart beat fast when I couldn't reach you. I get very moody if I didn't see you around. 
We went to same college. 
Different course, way different.
Different class, 
Different timing and schedule. * selalu clash masa.
So yea, rarely sit there and talk with you like we used to. Got to busy with things around college, assignment and project shit. I only see you for half and hour or 15 minutes every day. We have to rush to class, *cause time you habis class, i ada class. Time i habis class, you ada class -.- so yeah. BUSY. Tak suka.

There's a lot I learn from you, but I just don't know how to interpret to myself. I try to change a thing or two  for you, cause I know that would make you happy. I will try, slowly. I promise. :)

Mine :D

Always and forever. Muhammad Nur Hakim Ismail pull stop.
Literally at this minute I can't sleep at all. I  finish my project management assignment and print it and already file it together, so like yeayy for my group la kan -.- .K not gonna say anything. Zip my mouth bout you guys. :D

I can't sleep. Owl eyes baby !
Why I can't sleep ? Hmm, today I spend a quarter of my day with hunny at Wangsa Walk. Eat at NZ curry house. At 11.30 received phone called from my dad. But I didn't pick up, -.- malas. So it's like an alarm saying "GO HOME NOW !". So yeah, hunny go pay the bill and we walk to his motorcycle. 
We spent about 15 minutes there, he tried so hard to pujuk and ask me to go home with him, he want to send me back home safely cause it's like 11.45 PM like that. So he's kinda worried and all. He insist me coming with him, BUT I was to scared to ride a motorcycle
*another story ; I sebenarnya dah lama tak naik motor, like 9 years already. So memang totally penakut :(
*continue I almost cry just not cause I'm like super penakut. After 15 minutes he pujuk and consult, ceramah and everything he finally gave up and send me back by cab. Hunny, I know you're mad at me. I know I shouldn't let my fear eat me up like that. I know I'm supposed to overcome my fears and just do it and have fun with it. But this stupid feeling -.- oh god. I wish I could explain this feeling. I'm scared to death. I know it's nothing tapiiii I takut. Hunnyb, I bukan tak nak, I takut. Seriously :|
I will try to do something with this thing. I promise :(.
I know you're mad. I know you well. Love you hunnyb