Sunday, January 2, 2011


With days and months passes by, I finally realize I have lost few important things in my life. With regret. and shameful, I was to scared to face you. I know we're best friend, but still that feeling won't go away.
We left school nearly 1 year go. But all the memories still fresh and shine in my mind but yet lately it started to fade away, and,
as soon as I received your phone call. I have realize you already gave up on me. A short conversation from you saying "Sayang, it's time to say farewell. Take care Q.". There's no words came out from my mouth at the moment, I'm stiff like I'm attached to electric shock.
Babe, I know no words can express your broken heart. I really miss you that I would cry literally 2 hours for it,
I'm stuck in the middle of doing my essay for tomorrow, and I suddenly run thru all the pictures that have you're in it. and I could feel, warm water roll down my cheek. I miss you badly B, no one words can describe my feelings neither yours.
I accidentalness broke the chain, a chain which tied us together and we promise that we wouldn't let it go no matter what happened. But I just did,
I know it's hard for you to believe this, and I know you well. We wouldn't be like we used too. How I wish I could turn back time and make it up to you. B, I really MISS you best friend :(


The miracle of 'smiling'

By now you're perfected a smile, for it, it hides your insecurities, it hides your anger, it hides your sorrow, your sadness and your envy towards people. With just a smile. A smile hides those tears you cried last night and that broken heart that refuse to heal. It hides your flaws and regrets. It hides your pain and your fears. Your hate and your jealousy. With just a smile it will hides who you are. :)



I love Allah (S.W.T) 
"Deny me in front of people, I will deny you in front of them"

Can't Sleep

This is what happened when you sleep at 12 in the morning, and finally woke up at 3 in the morning and call the boyfriend sampai credit habis and started to get gatal and open the lappy at 4 and it went on and on at bloggy and I actually forgot how to sleep -.-'
So, this is what happened when you have a lot of things in your mind, you're so tired and you want to bumbum and yet you will woke up early in the morning like me :D


I'm sorry for ignoring and avoiding few people in these few days, I don't feel like talking to anyone. 
I don't know why, it's like my soul went somewhere else and don't want to come back, maybe it's because of Nabila, it happened in a few seconds. My heart went away just like what she did to me. I don't blame her for leaving, maybe it's time. Maybe, I don't know. I can't think straight, I'm not well. 
Sometimes, I don't want to hurt people by my words and how I react with the way I talk, and just sometimes, I just want to keep on silent and rather not talking than have to have a sick conversation. Macam mana nak jaga perasaan orang ? 
Hmm, if I talk you'll get hurt, and when I decided to keep on silent and rather not say anything it hurt you. AGAIN. Manusia tak pernah puas. Tamak -.-'
Bosan, kbye :|

Best Friends and Friends

The Differences between Best Friends and Friends

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”

FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)

FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.
BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”

FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.
BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.

FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”

FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.

FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.
BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.

FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”

FRIENDS: Will help you move.
BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.

FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”

FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!

FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!

FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.

FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.

FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”

FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”

FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.

FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!

FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.
BEST FRIENDS: Will reblog this :)
: )

I miss Nabila Supina, the best friend of the life time. I'm sorry I'm not strong enough to face you right now, I'm just to scared that you might hate me when you're not. You know me and my paranoid-ism. I love you babe, you know I would find a million ways just to get back with you. Now it's not the right time, I know, but I will look for you one day. I know you're still hurt by what I said, but the truth is i just want to sit there and keep on silent, you read my mind good. I know you know me well b. B, I'm really sorry and really misses all the memories.
Never gave up on me, cause I never did b <3

Wouldn't mind losing a friend, but to have to loss you is a big mistake in my life, I swear.
I love you b.


Seek Happiness

I been looking and never get tired of searching for love and happiness. But the truth is, all this time it's already there, in front of me all this time. I'm just to blind to see it. I was to stupid and get busy doing stupid shit with others. The things that kept this smile and laugh and having this joy moment in my life is to have my family, my boyfriend and my bestie's with me. The things that I already owned all this time, but never did realize they are actually important. My heart are hard just like stones. I build up my ego's just to build myself and never gave up on things that ever happened to me. 
Now I'm happy, having you guys in my mind, my heart, and you guys really do means a lot to me. Thanks for having me, I love you guys forever.

Mom and Dad, never get tired loving me and the girls. I know you need a lot of patience to keep us together, we will change one day Ma and Ayah, it's just not today, tomorrow, or soon. Everything's take time, you don't really know what breaks our heart. Cause you never listen. But knows that we love you and each other very strong, and we have our different ways of showing it to each other. So, please do love and pay attention on us equally. I'm sorry, for being such a stubborn daughter.

The boyfriend : Never get tired of melayan-ing my bad ass attitude. Thanks for bersabar and really try to accept all the good and bad things in my life. You guide me good :D. and I have learnt to appreciate you more and love you always and never let you go. Cause all you did was to show me how cruel and tricky life could be. And I thank you for doing all this for me. I know how deep is your love for me. I do too Bee <3. I don't know how you hold on to me for quite long time ? But I'm sure you love to do it cause you love me, and I'll keep on to you, no matter what. You should know how much I love you Hunny.

The girls : Iddy, Dila, : Never get tired of listening to me whining bout how hard my life, but turn out I  can actually manage everything on my own without anyone's help but I never realize it. Thank you for being there for me, you guys means a world to me. 

  • To Iddy : Thanks sebab you sanggup datang from your house and come to my house and spend every minutes with me. Sitting and gossiping in the rain at playground is so much fun and funny. I miss you, sorry I hilang hilang these few days. You do anything for a friend, and sometime people never realize how big you have done to people. You're a good bestie B :). Proud to call you a friend dear. Keep it up. Take a good care of yourself aite ? We do dork things, you laugh like mad people, we gossip and stalk to the max, we just love to do that aite ? Haha

  • To Dila : Liyana Adilla. HAHAHAHHA* jap jap nak gelak. This women ! Argh I hatechu ! Haha, she's one girl that you want to hold on too. She will tell you every single thing that she had in mind. She's not bad, not a bad person. Never. She have her own way to mend her friends. She can be harsh and sweet at times, but that's her. Take her as who she is. We have different way of showing who we are right, so does she. She's been there for me. Sitting with me from 12 AM till 5 PM at Oldtown Rampai really brighten my days and open up my mind bout how you are. I tried to accept you for who you are, don't worry babe. Everything going to be just fine. :D. 
Remember our philosophy ? "Just smile and laugh it off, sit back and relax everything going to be just fine :D"